Broken heart

This entry was taken from my blog on mocospaces blog

Aug 6, 2010

All I wanna do is cry this sux so bad what does this mean? Is it a sign or bad luck. What's gonna happen? Should I pretend that I'm okay? If everything happens for a reason then is this really what I should do. I hate things where you can't fix it and I can't do anything about it. I hate when bad things happen to me and I can't do a thing about it. I can't do anything. Why does this happen to me? I was on cloud nine it seems like just yesterday and now I feel like someone took everything from me. And I'm left with nothing but all these stupid photographs and memories.

Unspoken words

This blog entry was taken from my blog on mocospace.

Jul 18, 2010

Hey I know this is weird but this is how I feel. And I am a very open person. Not with everyone of course only with certain people. I would tell you everything that happened to me from the moment i woke up to the moment i fell asleep. Am I weird for wanting to know more about you? I wish you were as open as me. When I ask you things out of curiosity you get annoyed and say "it's not about you so don't worry about it". I laugh and pretend I don't care when I know I just died inside. Sometimes I feel like I'm clingy or something. It's alright if the person doesn't care or doesn't know but if I feel that way about you I'm going to tell you how I feel no matter what. that's just how I am. I'm just sometimes feel as if I try to hard to express my feelings about you, I'm misunderstood. I just wanna show you that I love you. I can be completely obsessed with someone but I'll only do it if they are obsessed with me and are the same way about me because I don't wanna creep you out. I wanna discuss our future together but I'm too afraid of what your gonna say. I want what I can never have. I might already have everything I ever wanted but I'm too afraid to ask you.

Note: this was originally written to someone I love but I'm too afraid to send it, shocker, so I decided to put it on my blog at Mocospace instead

-Rina

Day fifty eight of Rina's life

So sorry I didn't blog yesterday. Nothing new is happening except I got a new belt and new shorts. They're Bermuda shorts. I like them and they go with my style. The only thing I don't like is the fact I had to get them from the little girls section in old navy. Haha but then again I don't really like any of the shorts I see in the juniors and women's section. And my mom agreed to buy me a backpack. So that just knocks off two items off my things to buy list. Yay! I didn't go to church today I woke up early though. I could have if I wanted to. But I knew my mom didn't wanna go. My mom wanted to go shopping instead and I didn't have any objections. I was suppose to hang out with my best friend Jhan today. Instead I spent all day shopping with my mom. I feel kinda bad that he came over to my house and I wasn't there I tried to call him and I left him a message. He ended up coming to my house anyway while I was shopping. I feel bad because I knew he's been wanting to hang out with me. But I'm hanging out with Derek my other friend and probably jhan on tuesday were going fishing! That should be fun. My life has been going spectacular on the love side. I don't wanna jinx anything lol because whenever I think things are going well my world crashes down around me :(. Which reminds me I have to text my other best friend leticia I gotta hang out with her sometime. One thing about me is I hate asking people to hang out. Idk why I just think it's awkward especially if they're coming over to your house. Then you have to be a good host and entertain them. How am I suppose to entertain them when all I do for fun around here is lay around and do nothing? Today I watched the movie 2012 and the blind side. They were good movies.
-Rina

Day fifty seven of Rina's life

Today I woke up watched some tv ate made chicken and then I drove to Woodstock. With my dad of course because I need hours so I can get my drivers license. I'm getting my license in october. Ok then I cleaned a lot!!!! Ok so this summer I've been obsessed with trying to make myself look good for school next year. I'm not going to lie I'm looking pretty hot! My skin is better than ever and I've been getting a nice tan. I just need to keep it up. Except I got two mosquito bites on my forehead. hopefully they will go away soon. Right now I have $54 i think all in my piggy bank I can't wait to get more money!! 
-Rina 

Day fifty six of Rina's life

Ahhh so I just wrote a bunch of stuff and it disappeared. Now I'm just gonna write it on my iPod touch notes and transfer it from there. I don't trust you Internet. Guess who didn't get yelled at? Yeah that's right me!! So today I woke up at 4 pm and my mom had just gotten home from work and she came in my room told me to get up gave me my medicine and a list of things to do. She didn't yell at me she just said she didn't want me to stay up late like that. Today I woke up made dinner which was pasta salad and fried chicken. Then I took a shower. After that I scrubbed the tub, washed the dishes and put them away, cleaned the oven, swept the stairs and vacuumed. Then I went outside and watched my brother set off some fireworks it was fun I think he set off a zipper, a tank and a strobe light. It was funnnnnnn. The police didn't come haha. My day was pretty short considering I woke up at 4 pm the rest of my day I just lied around and watched tv. I'm really hyper now I'm suppose to be asleep of course. 
-Rina 

Day fifty five of Rina's life

right now im doing one of those things i enjoy. staying up all night doing what i love. will i get yelled at for this in the morning? Yes oh wait it is morning. i will probably get yelled at for it when my mom wakes up. yay! that is fun. im sleepy i took my meds but im at the computer now. So i dont know if im gonna fall asleep in this chair or what. oh right now im watching someone sleep. i feel like a creep but this is what she wants. :)
-Rina

Day fifty four of Rina's life

after all my good grades are just normal for me it doesn't matter. People expect that from me so why should they care. But if I do anything less than expected than I get ridiculed. I can't mess up. I have to live up to my expectations. When all the praises leave the only thing left to motivate you is yourself. An outstanding work ethic is expected from me. Anything less then that is not good enough. The amount of work put in doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is it's perfection. Without that then it's worth half of what it was before. What happens when the money gets old and perfection wears out? There's still faith I will live up to and beyond expectations. Where's the faith when I'm getting money for barely doing anything where's the hope? I see how it is now I'm getting the same money for Doing four times the work I did before. People expect me to be happy about this. I try not to be selfish. But let's face it I love money! Funny thing is I don't put little certificates I get on the fridge anymore. I don't need people to be reminded of the my grades. I motivate myself to get good grades. I care about my education. All my certificates for good grades are in my room just a little reminder of why I care what I strive for. I might not be the hardest worker or the smartest I might not live up to others expectations but I try my best to live up to my expectations. Isn't that what matters, whether or not I'm happy with work? I thought it was the effort that counted? Whatever happened to a stable money flow whatever happened to a value on everything I do? That value is gone. My word isn't worth a dime. Neither is my work. I guess all I have are my certificates and a couple of friends. It isn't good enough in my eyes. I want so much more than I have. Do you miss that girl who would work twice as hard as me? Do you miss that girl who was respectful and kind to you? Do you miss that girl who you talked to all the time? Do you miss the old me? So do I. I don't know where she went. I don't know why she left. I didn't do this on purpose it's just a mess of bad choices. I wanna change but I don't know how. Nothing is going back to normal. I was disrespectful and now I'm just hurt. But in my eyes do you see the old me? The one you used to have faith in. Everything I do isn't worth a thing. Was it perfect this time? No matter when I do the work or how I still get half the amount for twice the work. Was Giving me money for doing a bad job a mistake or a lesson? If I work harder will things go back to normal? No.. Life isn't that good. I can't change the past but I can change the future by what I do in the present. Do you see the changes I'm making? are you proud? Do you see a disappointment? Do you see someone who is not me? Look into my eyes what do you see? I look into your eyes everyday through a mirror and all I see is someone who is worthless, a disappointment, a waste of life. When I look into your eyes I see someone who I hate. Is it the real me i see or is it just a reflection. I want so many things just so I can stop hating myself. I don't show it because I want to change. I wanna be someone who I can stop hating. I am changing does anyone notice besides me? The better question is does anyone care besides me? I rarely show hate to myself unless you are one of the few I confide in.

-Rina

Day fifty three of Rina's life

So this summer vacation i wanna earn enough money to buy several things:

• shirts 
• a pair of pants 
• a pair of shoes 
• a backpack 
• a belt 
• headphones 
• a ipod case
• a ipod charger 

I have been listening to a podcast called Dead Hunt.
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Day fifty two of Rina's life

I have been feeling lonely lately. I haven't Been talking to Hardly anyone lately :/
-Rina

Day fifty one of Rina's life

Well today was fun I guess. I couldn't sleep last night so I was so tired that I didn't go to church. when my mom got back from church she yelled at me. Then I ate and my best friend jhan came over and I taught him about the his iPod touch and I got him synced and stuff. then I cleaned and did my chores it's 5:04 Am right now and I just finished cleaning the bathroom. I hate bugs. Today I killed 3 earwigs eww did u know they can fly OMG EARWIGS CAN FLY!!!!

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-Rina

Day fifty of Rina's life

Well today I actually did something I woke up ate cleaned watched tv did a video chat. I went driving today. Ok this summer I wanna make enough money to buy the following: a pair of shoes, a belt, a couple shirts, a pair of pants and a backpack. My mom said that's probably possible. I can't wait to buy things. I got my stuff taken away today. My moms trying to teach me a lesson to help someone out without being told just to help other people out.
-Rina

Day forty nine of Rina's life

Today I woke up made pizza and watched tv for a few hours. Then I went driving with my dad it was fun. And I got dairy queen yay. Ok so I decided to take better care of myself because I want to go back to school looking better than ever!!! So everyday I'm taking a shower and I'm doing all that hygien stuff. Also I'm making dinner everynight so I can earn some money. I can't wait to be rolling in dough.
-Rina

Day forty eight of Rina's life

so today nothing interesting happened. oh i broke my charger. so im going to start writing in this everyday so everyone stay tuned. so today i woke up watched tv and made some stoffers pizza. i went in my room after watching a few hours of tv i played on my ipod touch and texted and stuff. then i ate dinner and got ready cleaned and went to the store. im so happy though. because my mom went to bible study and two girls asked where i was. isnt that amazing im actually making friends. wooh go rina go rina goooo!!!!
-RinaM

Day forty seven of Rina's life

I found this:
I am Terina Ruth Burr age 12, and this is my life. First I was taken away from my birth mother because my sister was taking care of me not her. Latina Davis was seperated from me through the adoption agentcy. Then I got taken to a foster home. Big Rina was the mom and there were 2 kids one was named Shanon the other's name I can't remember. Until one day I got adopted at age 1.5 by two parents Carrie and Russle Burr. TO this day I call them Mom and Dad. I quikly ajusted to this new way of life and stayed in touch with Tina. I got to loiking my Mom better and look a lot like her. Two months later chris came along, I naturally got jealous, but got on with it quikly. I still keep in touch with Tina and am doing good with my first year in middle school.

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-Rina 

Day forty six of rina's life

I had this weird dream if anyone knows what it means let me know MESSAGE ME COMMENT I WANNA KNOW!!! My dream  Me, Derek, jhan and Leticia were playing in this field and we were playing with frisbis. Our cellphone were turning into frisbis through the memory slot. You just pull the memory card and it turns into it. Then Derek had to go and jhan told me to walk him to his moms car so I did. But I had to run to catch up to him. When I finally cAught up to him he was looking for his mom and I'm like Derek wait up. Then all of a sudden Derek turned into a dog. Beside derek was a computer. I took Derek home and the computer to investigate. When I got home Derek turned invisible so my dad didn't see him when he walked in. I took him to my room and turned on the computer it said mr. ....(I don't remember his name)'s computer. Next to Derek appeared an earwig. I looked on the computer and there was a series of numbers all under different names. They all appeared to be hypnotists.  First was the mr... I called him first. When I called it said " the number you have dialed is not in service. So i called the next number underneath the first one. It was a lady hynotist. I called and then immidiately there was a knock on the door. I opened it and the lady in the picture on the computer who's number i was calling said "you called" I said "sorry wrong number". As she was walking away I said "do you know who mr... Is?" the lady got this horror stricken look on her face and disappeared. Then I went back to the computer and kept trying to call mr... I finally realized that the number on the computer kept changing everytime I looked at it. Then I woke up.  -rina

Day forty five of Rina's life

i'm so glad schools out!!!! no more worrying about being popular, not having any friends, not being smart, all my insecurities aren't put out To be butchered I hate school I honestly do but maybe it's trying to teach me a lesson. Not to care what other pple think. But it's who I am because everything I strive for deals with others perception of me if I'm a genius in my head and I get a reputation of stupid I mean that's not what I strive for i wanna be Noticed I wanna be a star I wanna be Rina I can't wait till next year I'm gonna prove be successful in whatever I do. This is an end to a whole new beginning. I'm Rina and I'm gonna show the world me. I'm sick of hiding my insecurities. I've learned so many things this year well the most important one is I'm going to lose friends eventually and really it's pretty easy losing a friend. So I'm a loner for a while but I made new friends and i am happier! things aren't that big of a deal then I make them out to be. Letting go isn't that hard. I've learned to make my own fun. Nowadays I can lay in bed all day and have just my iPod touch and be happy. It's not about the big things. I can always find something to do and I always will. It doesn't matter if I am hanging out with a ton of friends or just one. Because at the end of the day the question is: was it really that hard or painful? NO!!! I want to be popular but if all this time I wanted to wouldn't I have taken the initiative. So do I really want it that bad? No it's just wishful thinking. So y do I get upset? I need to stop take a minute and think... Do I really need this? The answer is no! I make a big deal over nothing. And when it comes down to it if that thing I wanted or wish to have or be never occurs will I survive? Yes!!! So why should I care!!! I think this is what I learned this year. It's time to be me it's time to be RINA!!! I need to be the person I am that person everyone seems to like.  -Rina

Day forty Four of Rina's life

Sorry I haven't been blogging it's not that my life has been boring it's that my life has been interesting. Ok well kiki is in boarding school right now so I can't talk to her although I sent her a four page letter back to back in the mail it's pro. But it takes like 6-10 days to get there. Blahh oh kiki called me on the phone the other day she was crying cuz she was gonna miss me. Ok so I have the song lol here it is: I hope u know By kiki If i had to fly a thousand miles to be with you id do it gladly i love you madly nd its killin me you are my breath my death my light my night you are my sunshine if i reach for the sun and land on the moon i no ill b here wt u if i walk 2 the light nd end up in night i kno ill b he wt u i hope you know*4 if you are every word i speak it must b perfect poetry if you are evrythng i see then its perfect for me you are my tears my fears my dreams my screams you are my everything if i wantd a cloud nd didnt no how i no ull b here wt me if i reachd for a star bt it was too far i no ull b here wt me i hope you know*4 if you knew how posible it is to love you completely for all eternity*2 -Rina

Day forty three of Rina's life

Ok so today was boring I don't really wanna blog but I have to. Today we did bench maxes in excel it was terrible. Like bry said I tried harder and I couldn't lift the bar which is 45 lbs sigh. I didn't even get to do my maxes cuz I spent to much time trying to push myself. It's ok though I lotioned my legs correctly so I was happy. I have weak upper arm strength She said she guesses she is wrong. Lately alot of pple have been saying stuff about my legs I think it's from running so much in excel gym. Yeah go me. Today was boring I was just worrying about kiki and I got all depressed after school and I ditched drIvers Ed again it's ok I'll go on Friday. Other than that I guess that's all I have to say yay I'm tired omg we have psae testing tomorrow so I gotta get a good night sleep. I can't wait to talk to kiki. She wrote a song about me it's awesome.
-Rina

Day forty two of Rina's life

Well I didn't reallY wanna blog but since it's almost twelve I kinda half too. So today was awesome I woke up and I actually went to church with my mom. Sandra and Erica picked us up. I even went to the teens group thing they had. Okay well it was an adventure and pretty scary I didn't really talk much I met two girls though. Sandra afterwards formally introduced me to them she made me shake their hands. It was different I guess. Me and my mom are going back next week yay I'm exited. That's basically all I did that was worth blogging about oh I went to the candy store afterwards and Sandra bought me candy it made me pretty happY. -Rina

Day forty one of Rina's life

Today was a good day except I'm kinda mad at myself the reason why Is because i was socially awkward on the phone it was terrible. I hate how socially awkward I cAn be at times. I just freeze up and have nothing to say and I get all quiet. Maybe it's just that person I was on the phone with oh well I hope I get over it. It's so annoying ugh :(. Well Im really happy because my moms finally accepting the fact that I go on mocospace alot and talk to people. She actually carried on a conversation with me. I think this was the best day ever. Tomorrow I'm going to church with my mom it's gonna be an anventure. And I don't think my mom hates kiki anymore this is great. :)
-Rina

Day forty of rina's life

Today was fun I guess haha I went to school talked to kiki while I could during school and I was on the Internet all of second block so my phone died during lunch. And jhan asked if I could charge it at the second half of third block it was awesome. Then after school I talked to kiki some more. And yeah all in all it was a good day we played handball during gym, watched a movie during chemistry, and Econ and health were boring. I meantioned kiki a couple times at the dinner table when I was eating with my mom. I have this feeling she doesn't like kiki. Oh well she will get over her dislike I hope. And now I'm sitting in my room bored. Oh I'm getting my hair Done again tomorrow. I'm just gonna get the exact same hair I have now though
-Rina

Day thirty nine of Rina's life

So I'm staying home from school again. I am sick cough cough sniffle sniffle. I am on a mission to go to north Carolina by The first week of august. I have no idea how I am going to get there. I mean I am going to have to ask my mom to drive me unless I want to get arrested. Or I could ask Harrison to pick me up and drive me there. However that would be way to much to ask of him. I could never do that. Sometimes I wonder if I ever think things through before I go promising stuff. I mean like my mom is going to say yes to going to north Carolina just for a day hahaha. I just get caught up in the moment but no matter how much I wanna go to north Carolina it's up to my mom. She already hates the person I want to see why would she agree to driving me there. She will be like blah it's a waste of gas blah blah blah. I just wanna go there so bad god please someone help me.
-Rina

Day thirty seven of Rina's life

Well today was terrible. But I guess alright I read some messages today. I got upset and I was suppose to stay after school I waited twenty minuets for my drivers Ed teacher. Then I didn't feel well I felt like crying so I went inside asked this lady where I could find my teacher. She toldme to check his room. Of course he wasn't in there so I just called my mom and left. Now I'm sitting in my room crying over something stupid all I wanna do is cry :(. Ok update my day overall is gotten alot better I'm really happy and I stopped crying :). I'm not sad anymore all I wanna do is sing dental care "I'd rather pick flowers Instead of fight And rather than flaunt my style I'd flash you a smile Of clean pearly whites"
-Rina

Day thirty eight of Rina's life

so today was the best day of my life. Although I didn't do anything it was the best I layed in bed all day and I got a call from someone and it made my day. I feel like I'm in the clouds. Sigh :) anyway I got in a fight with Ldog gahhhhhhhhh I'm a terrible friend I'm so selfish but it's ok I'll get over it.
-Rina

day thirty six of rina's life

why did i even bother to go to school today is gonna be a horrible day i can just tell. ok i wake up get in a fight and then i go to school. right now im at school in the library sitting at a table all alone i feel like crying oh wait i feel better derek came and sat by me and so did jhan yay!. where is brandon? Haha I feel alot better now my day turned out well i guess.
-Rina Burr

DAy thirty five of Rina's life

I hate Sundays they makes me feel like a total loser.I can't help the fact that I never have anything to do cause I'm a loser well that's not exactly the truth cuz I get to drive today again and do my chores yay soon my mom will owe me $80 cha ching. anyway my friend is always telling me that my happiness is ambiguous. That pisses me off I mean just because being with family and or god doesn't make me happy doesn't mean I'm confused about what makes me happy. Just because money and someone makes me happy doesn't mean I'm unclear on what makes me happy because I am clear on happiness. Try to be me for once oh wait you can't only I can. I wish I could clone myself then be my own bff that would be perfect
-Rina

Day thirty four of Rina's life

Well I'm just writting a random blog just so I'll have one for today but anyways Im not gonna wtalk about my day I guess I'm just gonna talk about what I've been thinking lately. Well I've been thinking about a lot lately and how much I've changed. I guess I'm happy but honestly I was happier freshman year even though everyone hated me and I was mean I didn't care because I was happy with my friends I didn't care about who hated me and I was happy with my life that was the Rina I've been my whole life. I feel like I lost a part of myself somewhere nowadays I've let go of all my mean ness but Ive lost so much I lost myself yeah the old Rina was mean and stuff but she could ignore everyone and everything and not care about a thing. I hardly remember the old Rina. The sad part is the old Rina was the one I was my whole life. Being the new Rina comes with too much being nice to everyone, and caring about what others think, so I have more friends but do I really??? I'm still doing nothing on a Saturday hoping for a new day. I do have a lot of friends compared to the old Rina but I don't really because Im not the kind of person who will invite people over or text someone unless I feel comfortable with it. I guess the only thing I haven't lost is my work ethic. At least the old Rina all she needed was her one best friend and she was happy but now I don't even have that anymore that best friend is still my best friend but I guess it's not the same. The new Rina is great I guess but not really because she already lost a friend. Looking back now I ask myself was it worth it??? No. The original reason I started being nice was I thought maybe me and Allison would be bff again but then I guess I liked how many friends I was getting and after all that I realized it wasn't gonna happen. But alas I don't care that much do I??? If I really did then I would actually start doing something I would try to reconnect with them but I don't feel the need to go out of my way to do that. I guess I just keep hoping something will happen we will be friends agAin. Haha yeah right that's not gonna happen. Well I will if I ever feel like it.
-Rina

day thirty three of Rina's life

well sorry i havent been blogging my life has been pretty boring so far and i finally have enough to say to feel like its something to remember. well first im in excel gym we normally run two laps either do stretches and then go to the weight room or play a game or run then do stretches. today we played handball because it was game day it was fun i guess. when we go to the weight room i always lift fives. bry said i was a strong person so i really need to work harder. anyway i have this weird obsession with gangster i know thats weird to say but it all started when these gangsters moved by my house. theres like six of them and they all go to my bus stop. Me and my friend used to count them and since then its evolved into something more complex. however i must point out that im not being racist i am being stereotypical u dont have to be an actual gangster. there are three levels of gangster ghetto gangster, gangster, and low level gangster. Being a classified as a gangster has very high standards its based off of: the way you look, your hair, the way you talk, the way you walk, and your personality. not everyone can be a gangster on my scale. ok the two main gangster are gangster girl the main one and gangster girl two. one day on the bus i sit with my friend elizabeth and i was looking in the mirror and all the gangsters we staring at me. it happened every thirty seconds for like five minuets. gangster girl is the main gangster because one time she used to take my seat everyday just to sit next to this one guy but its all good now because me elizabeth claimed that seat. i usually say something along the lines of thats so gangster hahaha. today was sorta boring im really tired. i overslept probably because i starting eating a chocolate shake at 11pm. not a good idea but i mean i just like had a split thought of i need chocolate shake. Luckily i wasnt late and my mom drove me to school. oh yesterday this girl who is a gangster but really nice and i was just like walking really fast all of sudden and shes like do you have adhd and im like no. i dont want people to think im wired or something i know a lot of people have it at my school but theres still part of me that thinks that it would make me seem less smart or something. last night i was so exited to write this blog. like ecstatic. i have no homework over the weekend yay. except i have to practice driving. my drivers ed teacher said i could pick any day to come in after school next week and drive. im gonna go eat oreos and then eat the rest of my chocolate shake and surf the web. -Rina

Day thirty two of Rina's life

Today was probably the best day of my life. i have been so happy today. i haven't been this happy in a long time. i entered school and i put my stuff in my locker and i saw natalie. then she told me to walk with her so i did it was a new experience and fun. Brandon is trying to make me and Geneva friends again. I have gym with Geneva but we were all separated by gym teachers and we have different gym teachers so i talked to bry who was in my drivers ed class before. i love school now because i know at least one person in each of my classes. my new classes are excel gym, global economics which is going to be a breeze because its advanced and then i have health easy a. ok lunch was a little trippy cause i was this close to talking to howard. it was weird i feel bad because i was being rude but really i just wasn't prepared for it like if i was i wouldn't have been like omg omg omg. however i pulled through and health was a saving grace and got me really happy. i came home from school with no homework i didn't even need my backpack. after school i came home an i played on my ipod touch and then went driving with my mom for like fifty minuets. even jhan said i was different today i was happier. i have just been really happy now a days because my life is almost perfect. i have what i want and i am actually happy that says a lot because i have never been this happy in a long time. I get messages daily from this person and that just makes my day. i love -Rina

day thirty one of Rina's life

Today was extremely fun I guess. Today was Easter. I went to my aunts house. My brother didn't go so it was sorta boring. I kinda was sad just a little that he didn't go because it's the only time I talk to him. The other day he did something nice though. I was in shock. He was on the computer and I was in my room and I left my phone by the computer and he brought me my phone from the computer. It was surprisingly nice I said thanks :). Ok my friend is acting normal I guess. Hahaha I got $30 in iTunes gift cards I'm pretty content. Also omg I got 16 cadbury bars!!!! 16 woooohhhhhh!!! Okay one thing I forgot to do over break was drive I'm so screwed for my behind the wheel test. I just have to practice Monday and hope for the best. I told my mom to get me 55 singles I am gonna take a picture of that. Then buy a camera not neccessarily in that order. Today at my aunts house I asked my mom "guess who added me on facebook? We were talking about her like 36 minuets ago..." and she said "kiki" nooo it's not kiki it's never kiki I'm not an idiot why would it be she always answers kiki. I think that that it's so stupid it makes me feel weird and I get all quiet and I feel like crying. i mean seriously. One day my mom is going to stop meantioning her name. we had an awkward talk in the car too it was sorta my fault though for bringing it up oh well I ended it so there best conversation ender "I don't wanna talk about it". Tomorrow I have school I have to get up in five hours and I'm not even asleep oh what a joy. I don't know what i am going to wear ahhhhhhhhhh. I kinda want to wear what I'm wearing right now but I've worn this like three days in a row but these pants I only wore once. Oh you know what I could wash these. Yeah this is my favorite outfit because it's the picturesque of my skater look. My mom keeps bothering me about branching out to other brands. This is because I wear fox shirts and sweatshirts flannels sweaters ecetera and dealias Morgan or Taylor jeans and Osiris or Nike shoes. By the way I have four pairs of shoes I wear regularly. I have just this year decided that my style is skater and with my money I've just been continually buying fox clothing. Of course now I have to save up those days are gone bummer :(. Wow i wrote alot. Have I said on my Nike shoes I have glow in the dark shoe laces and I have glow in the dark socks. One time I almost set the socks on fire there was smoke and everything. It's so weird that I've been blogging for thirty days. This is probably better than my diary. One day when I hit the 360th day I'm gonna read all my old post remember everything. Even the slightest detail of my life is crucial. That's why I'm doing this blog for me not for anyone else. Writing this blog is a way to express my feelings and pour my soul onto paper. All these memories Sad, happy and or depressing are all important to me. Even though right now i might be rambling it's still something to look back on. That reminds me I never blogged this but I should one time when I was at my friends house I was offered tequila i think idk it was somesort of alcohol. Anyway I said no thanks so did this other kid. My friends at the party I was at weren't drunk though so it was cool. And I kept thinking omg I'm sixteen I just experienced my first teenage normal conflict. I felt so awesome blah alcohol I could have tried it but I'm too scared. Alcohol is scary.
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Day thirty of Rina's life

Today was fun it was also boring. it is these lazy days i love where i wake up, play on my ipod, eat, fall asleep, wake up, eat and lay in bed till five pm just listening to music and playing video games. monday i am going to miss these days. although today i did get a lot done i woke up ate frosted flakes and i think i played some game again called quizarium it was fun i must have played for like four hours. then i did my chores. i cleaned the bathroom and dusted and did the wash soon i will have $95 i feel rich. the sad part is i cant decide what i am going to buy while i keep thinking the money piles up and i have more options to choose from. other than that my day was boring i drank Gatorade today instead of water. it was the highlight of my day. one random fact is that my favorite gum is five gum rain flavor; it is the green one haha. my friend is being weird again but what else is new. oh wait i did start this new podcast today its called 

Notes From The Vault

A blizzard cripples an isolated stretch of US Highway where freezing to death would be a mercy. An antique broker holds the internet in the palm of his hand and learns what really brought the system down. In the forests of upstate Connecticut, a pair of college students visit the site of legendary hauntings.
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day twenty nine of Rina's life

ok well today went surprisingly well of course its not like i did anything today. however i did wake up read a ton of messages which made me happy. although i got into a fight with my friend its all good now. i know i said i would blog everyday i was just in a bad mood yesterday sorry :(. but seriously from now on you will hear from me from now on everyday unless i start failing another class. okay well right now i am on spring break. actually it is going to end like soon oh nooo!!!!!!!!!. today since i promised i am going to write more see writing more. i have been playing this new game on my ipod touch its really cool its this trivia game. i have $70 and i don't know what to do with it i have a lot of clothes and there is not any specific clothing i want. this is probably because i went on a shopping spree and spent $300 on clothes. i am probably going to buy a camera with that $70 i have. lately i have been fascinated with taking pictures of myself it has been fun i guess. right now i am typing on my computer so its really going fast. my ipod just randomly turned off fun i bet its because it was out of power. my favorite song is beak your heart by taio cruz. my favorite part of that song is when he goes "And I know karmas gonna get Me back for being so cold. Like a big bad wolf im born To be bad an bad to the bone." Comment -Rina

Day Twenty eight of Rina's life

So today I had a blast I went to my friend Alis house it was a new expierence I made new friends and had a great time. Today was just a good day haha. I don't know what else to write. I have $55 dollars and I don't know what to spend it on. I guess I'll just cut it short today tommorrows entry will be longer I promise :)
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Day twenty seven of Rina's life

Today was awesome I first woke up at 8:30 am ate frosted flakes then texted fell asleep woke up ate more frosted flakes then I got ready. Next I put on my favorite outfit for my bday. My dad drove me to my school and I went driving with my drivers Ed teacher for an hour it was fun. Then I went home and Read messages on facebook and drove with my mom to my friend leticias house. We went to woodfeild and I spent over $300 on clothes I got an iPod touch case and USB cord, skull candy headphones, and clothes. I went to the apple store, pacsun, journeys, zumies, dealias, kohls, and this guy burned my hair!!??? He was like "can I try this straightener on your hair" and I was like "yeah" and it burned I was like omg my beautiful hair :o haha. I had a great time. Then afterwards we took Ldog home and I blew out my candels had pizza not in that order but you get the picture. Then me and my mom go out shopping again for a bathing suit because I'm going to alis house tomorrow and she has a hottub and she said to bring my suit. Ok I got a new bathingsuit but I just realized that I can't go in the hottub because I can't get my hair wet. I'll just have to text her in the morning I might go in there idk might. Haha anyway I had a great day except I almost cried...because of a certain someone by the name of wait nevermind ask if you want to know. -Rina

Day twenty six of Rina's life

Today well I woke up and I took a shower and got all ready then I went driving with my dad for about an hour it was fun!! Then I got hoMe and I did my chores I made arrangements for my birthday it's today I'm so exited I'll tell you about it tomorrow!!! Woooohhhhhh I Rina am officially 16. So readers of my blog everything is back to normal I will be blogging everyday at 12 am stay tuned.
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Day twenty five of Rina's life

Ok well I'm sorry I haven't been blogging for about a month so I'm going to give you a complete summarry of my life. Well first me and Brandon and geneva became friends again it was great. Unfortuantly a week later I got in a fight with Geneva and we aren't friends anymore. Basically she is afraid of me. Because I'm just that intimidating roar be afraid of the all powerful Rina roar!!!! Haha jk she just said I bully her. Hey all I can say is I definitly gave it my all to fix that friendship and strangly I'm happy. I haven't been on because I've had soooo much work to do in the end I got a c in trigonemetry because of my infinite stupidity just flunked the final gahhhhhhhhhh I was sooooo closeeee!!!! I'm such an idiot. Anyways I'm 99% sure I failed chemistry final I check today again. Also well I'm just really happy now a days Katarina and crispin are back together yayyy!!! Well that pretty much sums up a month of my life. Now that it's spring break I'll be blogging alot more I won't miss a day i promise if u promise to read. Okay plan.. Today I did nothing except lay around all day those are the best days. One last thing my birthay is MARCH 29 MY BIRTHDAY IS MARCH 29 REMEMBER
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Day twenty four of Rina's life

So Sorry I haven't been blogging that much I haven't felt like it I have a ton of make up work and crap. Anyway in the mean time I feel terrible because u broke up the three musketeers by doing something stupid fml. I ruined three friendships I hate my life. On the brightside I had this weird dream if anyone knows what it means let me know MESSAGE ME COMMENT I WANNA KNOW!!!
Here's my dream:
So I was playing this horror game on my iPod touch but it was really realistic and it was like u were in the game and everyone else playing the game was a real person playing it so in the beginning u have to walk down the stairs and behind u is a door I kept losing the game so I gave up turned around and opened that door in their was just a couple beds or so and then Geneva came up the stairs and I started talking then pple started coming up so she stopped and then I went over and talked to this one girl who goes to our school and I turned around and said to Geneva "can I talk to u" so we explored and went up and found a kitchen and I said to Geneva and I said "i'm not very good at this game" she said "I am" and puts a syringe with orange fluid in my leg and I start flipping out I took the needle and stuck it in Her and I started booking it I ran out the door and left looking for an exit.
Here's another dream:
I was at my Highschool and student council was running this event. Then they painted my face red and captured me in a dungeon. Next girl with blonde hair and blue eyes rescued me from the dungeon. afterwards the guy who captured me was looking for me and I was trying to rub my red face paint off. my hands were so sweaty when he looked at my face that he passed me and said "I guess she was killed so u guys can go" then we all left and people started stealing knives and forks. We were all waiting outside for our rides. I didn't have any weapons so I asked kennedra "can I have some of your knifed?" I asked her because she had so many knives. I then realized I didn't thank the blonde girl who saved me. I started asking people "have you seen that blonde girl who saved me?" finally edyta answered me and said "yeah she is right over there" I went up to the blonde girl and said "thank you for saving me" the blonde girl said "yeah no problem" I asked her "do you go to Dundee crown" she replied in a hurry "no I'll explain later I got to go" and she ran inside. then I went up to jhan and said "maybe she is an angel" and jhan replied "nahhh" then I was going to ask jhan for a ride but he was already giving one to Makiah so I didn't ask.

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Day twenty three of Rina's life

So today which was technically yesterday was a bad day that is why I didn't blog. First in chemistry I messed up the whole lab and Jimmy made me feel horrible about it. I hate when I do dumb things. It hurts my reputation as a smart girl. Grr then Idk what else happened it was just a bad day oh then I drove for the first time it was fun I'll right more in tommorow's entry. I have a ton of homework so i'm busy a lot. I'm taking a break right now
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Day twenty two of Rina's life

Today was a bad day. I woke up read some messages went to school and found out the most shocking news of my life. I mean everyone knew it but i refused to believe reality until now. And the sad part is it hurts even more than when I ignored it. My life is just getting better and better!!! And guess what I hate this one girl I know it's mean and petty to hate her but I don't care I'm sick of this crap!!! Seriously could one good thing happen to me??? No I just get piled with hw given a stupid test I didn't even know about and I hear my biggest fear is true. All I want to do is cry I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. And then after that I went hope did a bunch of homework and cried oh wait I still am. Sighs...:'( Comment -Rina

Day twenty one of Rina's life

Today was a blast. I wrote alot before this but it just disappeared ahhhhhhhhhh magic....!!!!!????!!! Anyway all I did today was play eliminate pro, listened to the round red stone, my nose bled, cleAned the bathroom, watchEd amityVille horror, watch the end of the pregnacy pact, and studied. Also I looked into different tHings to invest my money in. The round red stone is an awesome podcast check it out:

The Round Red Stone

This tale concerns a lad of twelve, who sets off unwillingly on a journey with his uncle. In the course of his adventures, he obtains a stone, whose ultimate meaning is tied up with the fate of a war between two cities. As commonly happens with boys, he finds himself at the center of the conflict. Can he divine the stone’s purpose in time? Even more importantly, can he even hang on to it? The story includes a mystery, long journeys, prisons, adventure, and living out-of-doors. There is also a fairly large battle at the end, with plenty of blood. Death appears throughout.
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Day twenty of Rina's life

Today was fun I went to see a movie with my friends. Then hung out with Brandon and Geneva. Oh sorryy if I haven't blogged for a while I just was sick and I doubt u wanna hear about how I lied around all day. The most exiting thing happened the other day I had a really bad nose bleed and it was just gushing blood to the point where I was coughing up my blood. It was just delightful. Hahah Im kinda bummed cuz now I have $10 instead of $20. I can't buy anything with $10. I can't buy clothes. I don't wanna go to school Monday all I have to do tomorrow is do my chores and study. Blaahhhhhhhh for my bday I want $$ so I can go on a shopping spree. I want to buy clothes but now I can't darn. For the past like week I have been in this dream state I thought some days were a dream it was weird. One thing I want to do before I die is tip a cow!!!!!
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Day nineteen of Rina's life

Today nothing really happened I am still home sick. I was kinda not tired today so it was weird. I stayed quiet though. I didn't really wanna cause a rucus. Today I have been trying to get homework from my teachers
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Day eighteen of Rina's life

Today was another horrible dAy in the life of Rina all I did was lay in bed all day and cough. 8
j Ike up today and I was coughing and I thought it wads
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Day seventeen of Rina's life

sorry for writing this late but í got sick and all í wanna do is sleep. í feel terrible and í was crying for three hours yesterday. í was still upset about the whole rina, katarina, and crispin thing. right now im lying in my moms bed watching tv and my throat hurts. owwwwww
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Day sixteen of Rina's

Well today was boring.. Yawn!!! Except I got my permit today. Also I start driving tomorrow I'm spool excited. I'm kinda tired though I have to get up tomorrow cuz I need to do the dishes. I didn't have a lot of hw today. Idk what to write I guess this is It okay bye
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Day fifteen of Rina's life

Today was boring all I did was lay around play some video games and I totally guessed on all my homework. I did my chores today but I didn't get any money. This is because I spent $20 at the mall on food pencils and pens. I am extremely bored and I can't wait to go to school tomorrow it's what I live for. Haha not really I just want a muffin from the cafeteria. I got the album animal by ke$ha and I got the song how low by ludacris. Suprisingly there was no yelling today. Well I will pick up from the story cycle of pain: Rina is the only one worried about Katarina. Katarina is depressed and is denial. She tells Rina countless times not to worry about her. Katarina says she will never kill herself and is perfectly happy. But Rina thinks it's a lie. Katarina is too afraid to tell anyone the only person she has told is Rina and her two other best friends.
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Day fourteen of Rina's life

Well today was Fun I guess. I went to the mall with my friends Brandon and Geneva. Then we went to office max and I bought pencils and pens yay. Then we went back to Geneva's house and hung out. I'm still sad about yesterday all I wanna do is lay in bed and cry. I'll tell u in a story form picking up from yesterdays blog. So today Katarina told her friends about crispin they said that she could tell them that because they were her best friends. Katarina is still afraid right now of being judged. Also she is upset about crispin because she thinks he didn't answer her message on facebook. Crispin goes to boarding school and isn't allowed a phone. He can only go on facebook once in a while. Crispin and Katarina aren't going out officially because they broke up. But they still talk. Rina feels terrible because katarina was so happy until Rina started unstilling her religious beliefs upon Katarina. Rina feels as if she ruined Katarina's life.
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Day thirteen of Rina's life

Ok today was a bad day. Pîþy SùnÑy £öv3 Mìmý Sßßû (^_^) was correct in saying that im sad because i have been. I will explain by telling a story which is based off a true story. It is called The cycLe of pain. Once upon a time there was this girl name Katarina who fell in love with Crispin. Katarina being the techie was on a website where she met Crispin. Katarina wasn't suppose to be on that website but was anyway regardless the consequences. Katarina believed Crispin was her soul mate they planned to get married and everything. The only problem was Crispin lived in tokyo japan. Katarina and Crispin agreed to meet in three years but Katarina had to pay for everything because Crispin was younger than her by a year and they wanted to meet as soon as possible. So after almost a year of them going out Katarina felt like telling her best friend Rina about the news Rina pretended to be happy for her and everything. However since Katarina didn't tell anyone except rina about crispin she told Rina everything. Rina started telling Katarina about god and saying it was dangerous to meet some random guy on the Internet who could just be a 40yr along with other religious issues. Katarina after a week was convinced and broke up with Crispin. But Katarina loved Crispin she became very upset. She would cry herself to sleep at night and almost killed herself luckily Katarina had Rina and god to save the day. But it didn't stop her from crawling back to Crispin. When she went back to him she was only confronted by more pain and suffering. Katarina would ask "do u still love me?" Crispin Said "yes" but every single time Katarina goes back to Crispin she gets hurt and she always ends up breaking up with him then getting back together with him. Katarina is so desperate to be loved Rina is in awe. Since Katarina went out with Crispin her self esteem has lowered she doesn't have a lot of confidence and she thinks she is ugly. There is nothing wrong with Katarina she is probably more beautiful than me but Katarina can't see that. Katarina is soo close right now all she has to do is let go of Crispin. The sad part is no one knows about this except for Rina. Katarina is too afraid to tell anyone...will the cycle ever end? Will Katarina live happily ever after with Crispin...or will it end up in her death and or rape? Every cycle can be broken Katarina is so close...
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Day twelve of Rina's life

Today was just one of those days where I just wasn't really paying attention to anything. I woke up about a half hour late but I went to school and I had no homework. When I got home I was like :o what do I do. I love homework seriously I love it. So I just played eliminate pro I got a buch of power cells in that game. I love that game with a lot of things I just get bored of them and forget about them. Then all of a sudden one day I'll remember the game and start playing it for a while. Today I bought a pike hooded flannel in white. It's awesome. Ok I heard that my blog wasn't exciting. I mean this is a blog of my life and my life is the most exciting life on the face of the earth. Well I mean I wish I had some juicy gossip or a secret to tell you but I don't. Well I do but it would be a bad idea to blog about it. If I do I have to word it perfectly. My dad is in Seattle because my mom said the family needs a break of him personally I don't my brother and my dad just need a break. My mom says having him gone provides less stress in the household. All I have to say is the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. Sighs I am so glad i am a good kid. Around ten minuets ago I was texting my sister it was great I was having a conversation with her. I didn't say the last word though she did I just stopped talking. I have a sister haha I forgot to tell you. When I was with my birthmother I had two sisters an older sister who is 18or 19 who's name is tina and a younger sister named Gloria. When the adoption agentcy took me and Tina away from my birthmother we were adopted seperatly. When I was with my birthmother Tina basically took care of me when I was 0-2ish. I finished the podcast revelations it was more like a comedy it was funny not a horror. Right now I am listening to the podcast sleepwalker it's kinda boring but i don't really know cuz I'm not really listening to it. Tomorrow is a math test I am sorta worried because I didn't study.
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day eleven of Rina's life

well nothing happened today sorry for posting this late i just missed the bus the other day so i wanted get some sleep. so yesterday nothing happened i just focused on my homework and studied. then played a couple video games and tried to figure out what im gonna buy with $20 im not sure now. í haven't really been online lately because I've been focusing more on my homework. í have looked through all my messages í replied to the long ones. ill get to the others eventuallly. comment -Rina

Day ten of Rina's life

Today was really boring and I just went to school and did my homework. I did my chores too. I'm still listening to the podcast revalations. I hope I still will wake up in 5 hours I can't sleep. Oh since I did my chores today I an gonna get $20 I'm so happy. I don't know what to buy I think I'm gonna get a fox pike flannel in blue. Yay.
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Day nine of Rina's life

So today was pretty good I went to bed at 2am and woke up at 5am then fell back asleep and woke up at 7:00 am I missed my bus so my mom drove me. Today Had some homework I had for chemistry read chapter 2 and take notes, study for element quiZ, and study for safety quiZ. For American government I have to finish my political things I have to reformat my paper to bulletpoints and study. I finished all my homework. I did well on my math test and I think I passed my drivers Ed test. Tomorrow morning I have to reformatt my paper. Today in math it was scary because during the math test I was the only one using a calculator i felt like everyone was staring at me it was nerve racking. Today I didn't do my chores but I'm gonna do them tommorrow after school. Oh today I'm sitting in my room studying then all of a sudden my brother and his friend put an exploding pepsi bottle in my room it was so annoying. And today I got a Giant letter from a college I really wanna go their and me a major in computer science and mathematics. I forgot to mention that I can speak Spanish too. Right now I am listening to a podcast it's called revelation. Bridging the gap between psychological and supernatural horror, Revelations is the the story of Jamie Shetter, a psychiatrist on the brink of existential crisis. Unfortunately, her move from private practice to public service is of no help, as she discovers "truths" that have her questioning not only the nature of her existence, but her sanity. Join Dr. Shetter as she struggles to get control of her life back from the mysterious revelations, each more awful than the last. Comment -Rina

Day eight of Rina's life

Well today was really boring. I woke up at like 10am and my mom was yelling at my brother. Funn then I fell back asleep and I woke up at 2pm. I hardly did my homework. I had an off day I didn't do any of my chores but I'll do them tomorrow. I have to clean the bathroom, clean the dishes, and dust. And I gotta study for drivers ed tomorrow. So I forgot to meantion this so you know yesterday I meantion something about medicine well I take medicine because I have ADHD. Attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD or AD/HD) is a neurobehavioral developmental disorder. ADHD is primarily characterized by "the co-existence of attentional problems and hyperactivity, with each behavior occurring infrequently alone." While symptoms may appear to be innocent and merely annoying nuisances to observers, "if left untreated, the persistent and pervasive effects of ADHD symptoms can insidiously and severely interfere with one's ability to get the most out of education, fulfill one's potential in the workplace, establish and maintain interpersonal relationships, and maintain a generally positive sense of self." yeah it's fun to have ADHD and dyscalculia not haha but who's complaining. I would like to give a shout out to South park Piru who actually in a way answered my question in my introduction blog thank you soooo much. I feel alot better. I hope I don't fail that drivers Ed test tommorrow. anyway I had a mental breakthrough I think I'm over this seriously i think I am I'm gonna pray. I'll end by saying some random fact I love to listen to podcasts right now I am listening to some horror podcast called tatoo.
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Day seven of Rina's life

Today was fun. Haha idk I decided to write a novel and start putting names in these things. So today I went to my friend brandon's houSe with Geneva they are my two best friends yay. It was his brothers bday so we all just went it was fun I only got really weird at the end again I hate it. Grr maybe I should have taken my meds with me it wore off at like 11pm oh well too late. Maybe that's why I act so weird maybe it's not my emotions maybe it's my medicine but I don't know isn't it suppose to make me hyper if I don't take it not like blahhh. I'm kinda bored idk what to write about. I know I have so much homework to do tommorrow and i have to do my chores. In drivers Ed I have to study and read rules of the rode book and answer questions. In chemistry i have to read chapter 1 on lab safety worksheet. In government I have to do a one page paper on the people running for the county board district 21. And in math I have to study. I feel weird i don't know why i guess that was a novel haha I am still trying to catch up with my messages I am almost done I only have 44 left.
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Day six of Rina's life

So today was a great day I don't really know what to write. Oh uhmmm I went to the movies I say when in Rome with my two best friends. Then I hung out with my bffs at one of their houses. Oh today In chemistry i was lab partErners with Jimmy. And in american government that kid said "new shoes again and they match sorta coolio" it was great!!!!
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Day five of Rina's life

So I'm sorry if I haven't answered any of your messages. I just had one of those days where I am wrapped up in other things I don't get bored enough to go check my messages. I will get to that later haha. today I did all my hw and I have been coding on my calculator all day. My teacher said she went over my 504 plan last week. I was like wow prepared. I have been thinking about it my dyscalculia and how I hardly ever use my 504 plan I used to alot in middle school. I am going to talk to my counsiler and ask to see it. Oh well what else was I gonna say oh yeah some one needs to read all my blogs and not just skim over them you know who you are!!!!! Omg you know my best friend who is a guy that I like well he posted this valentine list on facebook and i am his number one choice I am so happy. Today in American government that one boy who said nice shoes to me yesterday said "oh new shoes today nice." It was great I had an over all good day. Actually great day amazing day! :) I am gonna read and reply to those messages like in five minuets. Oh I'm going to the movies tomorrow with my two best friends I can't wait!!!!!!!!! Wwoooooohhhhhhhh....!!!!!!!! GET ENERGIZED!!! I'm so hyper the best part is I have to get up in less than 5 hours!!!!
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-Rina

Day four of Rina's life

Well today was a really good day except I got a lot of homework for drivers Ed I had to study, for chemistry I had to do worksheets, for American government I had worksheets, and for math I had pg 14 #1-67 odd 70 ,72 I know I know I'm so good I just knew it off the top of my head. Haha anyway I found a dollar on the ground today I was soooo happy. I realized that I don't talk to one of my friends alot in lunch and I feel bad he sat right by me just to talk to me and I didn't talk to him that much sigh. I love that kid. He is my best friend! Anyway moving on I wanna talk about the messagess I get ok IM NOT INDIAN I have been asked that at least 300 times. I do not know hindi but if you wanna teach me Go ahead. Another thing some 28 year old guy proposed to me I was like uhm that's illegal and I ignored him I only ignore users if you scare me and I think you might be a stalker or if say the word sex. yes I am that strict I only blocked 4 people. I hate doing it though. So today I didn't really study for the drivers test I have at like 7:40 am it's 12:10 am where I am right now so I think I will pass I am not nervous. Ohhh I love life. Today this kid in my American government class came up to me and was like "those are the coolest shoes I have ever seen!" omg I was so happy I love it when people say that stuff about me. I have dyscalculia is a specific learning disability involving innate difficulty in learning or comprehending mathematics. So first day of trignometry and I am all pumped and excited to learn and the teacher is like math test friday no calculator. I have a 504 plan which allows me to have extra time on tests, elimination of homework problems, and I am allowed to use a calculator. Since I got this me and my calcalator have been close when a teacher says no calculator I start to frett. Especially if it is a new teacher I never had before because I have to tell her about my 504 plan. I emailed her she never answered though I'm not worried I can't sleep. Well I'm gonna go play solitare sorry for the long blog Comment

-Rina

Day three of Rina's life

Well my day was really fun. I know i'm kinda five hours late on writing this but I just woke up. Maybe I shouldn't have made it a tradition to write at 12:00 am everyday hahaha I was trying to stay up and I fell asleep at 11:50 pm I was sooooooooo close. Haha anyway I got my new classes they are drivers Ed, chemistry, American government, and trigonometry. I like all my new teachers they're cool I guess. I really love writing this everyday it's so fun. I had no homework. Oh my friend almost beat me on farmville but I leveled up before he beat me hahaha. Man I love that game it 5:25 am. I was so worried that I wasn't gonna wake up. Well readers comment thanks for reading.

-Rina

Day two of Rina's life

So today I hung out with one of my friends we had a blast it was great. Except my other friend couldn't make it so I was kinda sad. Im tired I have to go to school tommorrow and I can't sleep. And the fun part is I have to wake up at 5am yay. I played farmville again today it was great man I love that game haha. I have a detention tomorrow after school oh funnn. Idk what to write nothing else happened today you guys should really read and comment one my blog. Read every post of mine comment message me. I wanna know your thoughts. Anyway oh today I bought four folders and a three subject notebook I know exciting. Hahaha i love life. I wish I could sleep well that's all for now comment!
-Rina

Day one of Rina's life

Well nothing exciting happened today. I did my chores woke up around 10 Am. I had $40 I spent it on a flannel and some iPod apps. I am still trying to figure out what I want for my bday it's march 29. I am thinking the new psp in white idk though. I decided to make myself prettier I am being more concerned about my overall appearance this is fun. Tomorrow, well techinally today, I am going to hang out with my friends I can't wait I'm soo exited well thanks for reading day one of Rina's life. Leave a comment :)

-Rina

Introduction

Hi what's up my name is Rina. i am a sophomore in highschoOl. Im from the usa yay. Ok this is for everyone who keeps asking about my family I am adopted and so is my brother he was adopted from a different family than I was. I have a brother, mom and a dad. My dad is retired and my mom is a stay at home mom. I'm African american. I love life I like to Play video games, watch tv, do homework, play on the computer and play farmville man I love that game. Anyway I'm really into computer programming right now when I grow up I want to be a computer engineer. And I do not have a boyfriend In real life. I'm bored and I decided to do a blog a day just about my life and stuff. So today nothing happened I just chilled all day and I played a little farmville. Okay guys I have one question what does it mean when you say "your too good of a friend to go out with"? Does it mean that it's a nice way to say no get over it? Or does it really mean u treasure friendship? Okay well I'm gonna come up with random stuff to say. Well today I remembered my mom owed me $20 and I've had fun trying to figure out what to do with it. I still haven't figured it out. Sigh sometimes I wish I could get a bf like in real life well I guess i'm done thanks for readiNg this. Leave a comment :)

-Rina