Day fifty nine of Rina's life

Sorry i havent blogged in a while a lot of things have been happening but im going to start up again. I posted a few things on here but i deleted them. i dont know if this is weird or not but i dont like people i know knowing those personal things about me. the weird part is i dont mind strangers knowing them so i left the personal blogs on peperonity and mocospace. if you are reading this i do not advice you to go there. lol you will never know the links. anyway my day was pretty good. But not really i got D's on both my math tests i still got to turn in homework and i just hope and pray i did good on the test i took today. I got a tech prep program application from the counselor's office today. im worried i wont be accepted because of my attendance record :( if not maybe i should take statistics and finite math. Im worried about my brother he had a panic attack and is at the hospital now. my parents think i dont care about him but i do. Just because im not out in the living room witnessing the drama doesnt mean that i dont care. I can hear it all from my bedroom. im also worried about something else but im not gonna go into that. Its something im not suppose to worry about but i do all the time. I guess thats all for now. 

-Rina Burr

Unspoken words

This blog entry was taken from my blog on mocospace.

Jul 18, 2010

Hey I know this is weird but this is how I feel. And I am a very open person. Not with everyone of course only with certain people. I would tell you everything that happened to me from the moment i woke up to the moment i fell asleep. Am I weird for wanting to know more about you? I wish you were as open as me. When I ask you things out of curiosity you get annoyed and say "it's not about you so don't worry about it". I laugh and pretend I don't care when I know I just died inside. Sometimes I feel like I'm clingy or something. It's alright if the person doesn't care or doesn't know but if I feel that way about you I'm going to tell you how I feel no matter what. that's just how I am. I'm just sometimes feel as if I try to hard to express my feelings about you, I'm misunderstood. I just wanna show you that I love you. I can be completely obsessed with someone but I'll only do it if they are obsessed with me and are the same way about me because I don't wanna creep you out. I wanna discuss our future together but I'm too afraid of what your gonna say. I want what I can never have. I might already have everything I ever wanted but I'm too afraid to ask you.

Note: this was originally written to someone I love but I'm too afraid to send it, shocker, so I decided to put it on my blog at Mocospace instead

-Rina