Day sixty three of Rina's life

Today I decided I'm going to the fall dance. My mom is so excited she's like "take pictures". Oh mothers always the pictures. I am afriad I'm being used though. I hope I'm not. The only reason I don't think I am. Is because I automatically respect that person because it's my best friends cousin. I don't know I'm afraid I am though I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. Stay tuned I guess that's all I have to say I said more on my blog on peperonity check it out if your curious.

-Rina Burr

Day sixty two of Rina's life

So I lied about the blogging everyday thing. Lol I'll try harder. It's so awkward writing blogs on blogspot. I feel weird. On here I actually have to try and it's annoying. Or maybe I'm not patient. On my blog on peperonity I have like tons of fans and too many unread messages. I don't know it's probably because I started that one first and I kept up with it all summer. I know loyal. I'm improving. Anyway today was a good day!! I helped my friend with her homework in cup. I got good grades and I took a test. Which wasn't reaLly that fun. Ugh I have to clean the bathroom today. I don't want to I'm really tired. Haha i know why I get more hits on peperonity cuz I'm uncensored I say whatever I want without worrying who's gonna read it. I can't do that here well I could but that would be a disaster. When i get more confident I will. Speaking of confidence I love my hair so much. I've gotten great compliments. I am going to try extra hard to keep this up because I like the way I look now.
Rina Burr

Notes from my iPod: long distance relationships

Written: August 8, 2010

I do hate stuff like this I came to the conclusion that I do not hate long distance relationships I hate when circumstances come to the point where I can't do anything to contact the person and the bad thing about long distance relationships is u can't just go up to their door there is my problem although it probably has everything to do with the past and how much pain I went through and I guess not knowing what's gonna happen next if your gonna be available the next day or the next eats away at my heart. I probably feel so hurt because it's like taking away one of the major things I love about you. You were available as much as me we could talk on the phone and do this and that but now it's like everythings slowly dwindling away and I know it's not your fault I mean life happens I'm just afraid things will get worse and we will hardly be able to talk or something.

Day sixty one of Rina's life

I feel like such a loser. All day everyday I do nothing but pass the time by playing on my iPod touch. Yeah I text a couple girls who don't even live by me but that's about it. Sometimes I'm on the phone with one of those girls who I met online. I don't have any friends. I never hang out with anyone well hardly ever. I don't know how it got like this. When I was younger I had a best friend who I hung out with all the time we used to sleep over at each others houses all the time actually hang outside of school. That was a friend. She moved though. After that it was never the same. A few years ago I had a lot of friends I used to hang around a group of girls it was great. I had it great. When we got into highschool everyone went their separate ways to different schools. I had friends but things were never the same. I don't have that friend anymore that I can just be like let's hang out and have a great time with. I don't feel comfortable. It may be to the extreme yeah I hang out with a friend at least once in two or three months. That's my life oh and the whole time I'm at home I'm just in my room 24/7. It's so bad I enjoy going to work because it's something to do to get out of the house. Well that's me in a nutshell. I wish I wasn't such a loser
-Rina Burr

Day sixty of Rina's life

So today was boring. Blah I bet no one reads this. Haha I do this just for fun. I know I said that previously but the reason I added a blog on blogspot for someone cool to read it. When I posted my post on facebook i got more hits. I kinda wanna put up my person stuff up her but then again I kinda don't. I do because its interesting and shows my feelings. But its like depression, suicide ecetera. It reveals things about my life i haven't told a lot of people I'm just gonna put a few up a day and see what happens. Anyway about my day it sucked!!! I mean school was alright but it just made me sad because I don't have what I want and it hurts ugh why am I so obsessed. I'm pretty sure that's not normal. I wrote a letter to myself. I'll put it up here.
-Rina Burr

Day fifty nine of Rina's life

Sorry i havent blogged in a while a lot of things have been happening but im going to start up again. I posted a few things on here but i deleted them. i dont know if this is weird or not but i dont like people i know knowing those personal things about me. the weird part is i dont mind strangers knowing them so i left the personal blogs on peperonity and mocospace. if you are reading this i do not advice you to go there. lol you will never know the links. anyway my day was pretty good. But not really i got D's on both my math tests i still got to turn in homework and i just hope and pray i did good on the test i took today. I got a tech prep program application from the counselor's office today. im worried i wont be accepted because of my attendance record :( if not maybe i should take statistics and finite math. Im worried about my brother he had a panic attack and is at the hospital now. my parents think i dont care about him but i do. Just because im not out in the living room witnessing the drama doesnt mean that i dont care. I can hear it all from my bedroom. im also worried about something else but im not gonna go into that. Its something im not suppose to worry about but i do all the time. I guess thats all for now. 

-Rina Burr

Notes from my iPod: Lunch

Written August 31, 2010
I'm bored in lunch idk what's better going to school or staying home. I guess getting away from them is better than staying in thAt stupid house. My parents are so annoying. I don't wanna be around them. The only reason I'm going home today is because I have to go to work and I gotta call them somehow. I don't have a phone. Also I have to walk in my uniform ughz