Video Games

Written: July 21, 2011
I've been talking to myself a lot lately but I feel like it's not enough I can never get it out into words so I took this time to sit down in just talk to you yes you the people the ones I write to you when I write I feel like I'm talking to everyone I feel like I'm just getting it out getting it off my chest so I took this time do you speak here goes nothing: so right now how I feel it's pretty happy I'm a bit hyper but I guess yeah this is me earlier I felt like nothing could lift me from the sadness so a couple days ago us playing this game I had to get to this one level so i could actually play the quest i wanted to once i got to the level i stopped playing the game i feel like thats my life the hardest part is the struggle and constantly dying and coming back to life and fighting the same battle again learning strategies perfecting skills so i can get to my goal but once i get there to my goal ... Bam the desire the drive its gone

Failure

Written: August 17, 2011

So summer is over and school has started i had all these goals for myself and i feel like i failed i didnt buy a car i didnt get my lisence i dont have any friends to hang out with like a bff I dont know what college i want to go to I dont have any scholarships I know some people dont have these things but i know a lot of people who do and it saddens me that i dont cuz ive been wanting these things Or maybe i dont try hard enough But i can say this one day ill have those things but for now i feel as if i failed