oh College...

Well right now I am sitting in computer science bored as ever wishing that i had my own car. if i had my own car i would be out of here by now. a lot has changed since i last wrote in this blog, but i will get to that later. I am about to graduate in may and i should probably be writing an essay right now on the reasons why i want to transfer but i am not. i should be paying attention to my teacher but i dont want to concentrate. i literally am sitting in the back of my class typing away on my computer. i am the only black girl in my class and the only female to top it all off i am a stud. sometimes i feel so like awkward. i dont want to draw attention to myself but i don't want to listen to her. anyway i decided to start writing again because well i dont write anymore i know i say i hate writing i do. i passed my English classes so i never have to write again. i enjoy writing when im bored to my anonymous audience that probably doesn't exist. i wanted to get a few things off my chest. I cant write sometimes i think it is myself because somehow i always got decent grades on my papers for English with no help from my mom or anything. but this application is really hard like i need a registrar and a person who should recommend me. i dont know any professors like i enjoyed every single one of my teachers but to go up to them and ask for a recommendation is gonna be hard as fuck. I am thinking about asking my computer science teacher i mean that is my major. im signing off for now i am gonna try to write this essay. 

Help???: Advice

So I've been dating someone online for almost three months and i don't know what to do I want to have a real stable relationship where I see the person often and go on real dates but this person doesn't have their own cellphone so I hardly ever get to talk to them and they refuse to meet me half way idk what to do my mom won't let me go all the way to where that person is just to meet that person even though I have the money to and she won't let me go without her so I have come up with a few options I could take the train disappear one summer day and come back at night or I could buy that person a phone or I could convince my mom (which would take a lot of hard work) or I could wait till I'm 18 or I could save up my money to buy a car what should i do help!!!