Thursday, September 2, 2010

Broken heart

This entry was taken from my blog on mocospaces blog
Aug 6, 2010


All I wanna do is cry this sux so bad what does this mean? Is it a sign or bad luck. What's gonna happen? Should I pretend that I'm okay? If everything happens for a reason then is this really what I should do. I hate things where you can't fix it and I can't do anything about it. I hate when bad things happen to me and I can't do a thing about it. I can't do anything. Why does this happen to me? I was on cloud nine it seems like just yesterday and now I feel like someone took everything from me. And I'm left with nothing but all these stupid photographs and memories.

Unspoken words

This blog entry was taken from my blog on mocospace.

Jul 18, 2010

Hey I know this is weird but this is how I feel. And I am a very open person. Not with everyone of course only with certain people. I would tell you everything that happened to me from the moment i woke up to the moment i fell asleep. Am I weird for wanting to know more about you? I wish you were as open as me. When I ask you things out of curiosity you get annoyed and say "it's not about you so don't worry about it". I laugh and pretend I don't care when I know I just died inside. Sometimes I feel like I'm clingy or something. It's alright if the person doesn't care or doesn't know but if I feel that way about you I'm going to tell you how I feel no matter what. that's just how I am. I'm just sometimes feel as if I try to hard to express my feelings about you, I'm misunderstood. I just wanna show you that I love you. I can be completely obsessed with someone but I'll only do it if they are obsessed with me and are the same way about me because I don't wanna creep you out. I wanna discuss our future together but I'm too afraid of what your gonna say. I want what I can never have. I might already have everything I ever wanted but I'm too afraid to ask you.

Note: this was originally written to someone I love but I'm too afraid to send it, shocker, so I decided to put it on my blog at Mocospace instead

-Rina